Mei - "I have a better understanding of myself such as my soul nature, soul vision"

Through the 7A workshops, I have a better understanding of myself such as my soul nature, soul vision, behavioral patterns.  I have become aware of my fear and the reasons behind those patterns/fears. All these helped me to adjust my acts, especially when they are not aligned with my soul.

Also, I understand more on how to make soulful decisions and act soulfully instead of letting my ego to play the dramas. I have a healthier relationship with family members and friends and I also have better ideas on how I should live my life going forward.

In the Kyoto Retreat, I found out that I have the tendency to be the "last" person when I was in a group. I stressed myself out to make sure everyone was happy and in a good state and with no unsolved problems. Indeed, I had always given priority to others rather than to myself. And this tendency made me sad and I felt tired to live my life. I lost my true Self and didn’t even know who I am/what I want anymore. Through this realization, I begin to accept others’ choices and I will not be playing “God” anymore. I will also put my needs first instead of pleasing others going forward.

In addition, I will leave myself more space, do less and build up a healthy routine which helps me to be more aligned with my soul. I will also remind myself to focus on my intent before I act going forward.

The experience in the farm also reminded me that happiness is supposed to be very simple and about simple things in life but we always go so far away from it. 

When I saw the leaves falling and found them very beautiful but at the same time, I felt sad as it also reminds me of "death". But then it came to me that all of these is just the cycle of life; the death, the nature, all the ends and beginnings. As I sensed the beauty of nature, it also made me more at ease with the topic related to "death".

- Mei Chan